return2center

If I'm anything, I'm a secretly insecure person. I may not look the part, or say anything but deep inside I want to be reaffirmed and reassured of things. Because of that insecurity I'm also paranoid.

Also, I'm very gay

4am? No problem!

Good try we dont like it
good try we wont take that shit

every sigh and every shrug is like a stab to the heart
my muscles twitch and my gut wrenches

disappointment and I are bitter enemies,
in perpetual contest
what irony it is when we are seen as the same

I've been to a place that I don't ever wanna go back to

http://return2center.livejournal.com/3117.html

haha, may v-day blog ako circa 2006.
whatta gay boy I was (am?) haha

3hrs into valentines and I'm already a happy sap yeye

Grabe yung mga test. Laging mahirap. Lagi kang mali, lagi kang bagsak.
Minsan kahit anong aral mo di sapat, kahit lagi kang nagpupuyat at nagsusunog ng kilay. Kahit isinapuso mo yung pagaaral at talagang gusto mo. Iisipin mo ginawa mo na lahat eh, pero pag nakita mo na kulang ka na naman, iisipin mo, baka yung isang araw na di ka nagaral o nagbreak, yun pa yung dumali sayo. Ang mahirap pa, pag tapos an yung test, tapos na. Wala ka nang magagawa.
"Tinimbang ka ngunit kulang"

Pwde kayang minsan yung test naman yung magtake sayo?

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Nakakalungkot pag kumakain kang magisa tapos sardinas yung ulam mo. Ewan ko kung bakit, pero kahit nung college ganun na. Haha labo

The dream would be to spend the epic with you
Fly with you to the moon, grab the stars with our hands
We should do the unforgettable and make it unforgettable
and write our history with scenes that will never fade

Another dream however is to be with you in the mundane
Walk around, make some rice, eat a sandwich, do nothing
Let's do things we'll forget and let's do it often, make it never end
Whether it be the splendor and stupor, let's spend it together

Don't we all just have the propensity to be total dumbasses at any given moment and shoot ourselves in the foot. I know I'm exceedingly capable of that.

I feel like an idiot, probably 'cause I am. I think I'll put on the dunce hat for the whole night tonight.

Good thing I have to stay up the whole night to read up and do some HW. What joy indeed.

yup, kahit anong oras boy

hinahanap talaga kita

I'm kinda sure that this'll be pretty futile since no probably reads this anyway.

So feelings are flooding me inside right now

Melancholy
Frustration
Self-pity
Pathy (haha, ksi kung apathetic may apathy, ang pathetic pathy. pero di rin naman sya noun labo)
not anger, but a strong roused emotion
Envy
Jealousy
Disappointment

Maybe I didn't really know what to expect today, or maybe I did, I just didn't tell myself honestly.
I honestly don't feel good at all. I choose not to. Ha! There

Call me trivial but I think some dates are more special than others. I actually thought it should be automatic or given, but then again, maybe not. (Note to self: make plans next time)
I really wish I was in Vienna right now, and that you made dinner plans with me instead. Envy and jealousy.
Don't berate me, I just feel this way because of how strongly I feel for you and that sometimes logic escapes me.

But that being sad, I hope you have a good dinner, and a great night, cause I really love you and you should have good nights every night. Leave the moping and sucky feeling to me. Calling me guwapo helps a little though haha

I am actually thinking of staying up all night to wait for you. But I'll probably sleep this off.

I am also hoping the I get a good long fline when I wake up tomorrow morning.

Dr. Peps, you'll get your day someday.
It's you me and molly tonight son